Reach Into Your Soul
Ashita Ga Mienakute Mo
Professional Profiles!
May 15th
My temporary professional profile can be found here on LinkedIn. Still working on my own resume site. The content is lacking, not the design. 
[Dreams] Velociraptors
Jul 28th
There weer velociraptos in Petaling Jaya.
I can’t remember how it happened, only that it did. I suspected the attacks was carried out by two different parties, perhaps the human party had summoned the real thing? All? There was the matter of a revenge, and the raptor being allowed to terrorise the streets freely; everyone was going around carrying long umbrellas, golf sticks and other staff-like weapons. Mom didn’t believe me at first until we were attacked one day. I think we abandoned or let some expert take over fighting the raptor, because I remember we were running away, I tried to carry mom but failed, but the raptor was kept busy by something else.
The raptors appeared only at night, and you could never be too sure where they would appear. We were kept off-balance, everyone in PJ was. The last segment of the dream, my family and me had gone to 7-11 to grab some light snacks and what not just after dinner, just something to keep the tummy full while someone took care of the raptor problem. My brother and me walked off to a nearby Chinese restaurant, where they were having an outdoor, street-side wedding. We were looking for the guy who borrowed dad’s umbrellas while we were in the convenience store. He had disappeared, so my bro and me walked back to the car. My dad had extra umbrellas, so he had rushed back to the car and gotten them; we met up with him and mom not too far away.
I looked down into the grate covering the drains; I saw a velociraptor running by. Screaming at my parents, we began running to the car. It appeared behind my dad and I hit it with the umbrella. It chose to engage me first, also with its own umbrella. This was the human masquerading as a raptor, I thought, but it turned out not to be so, cause it still had its teeth and all. In fact, it was completely a raptor except it was talking, mocking, us and everyone else who wanted to defend ourselves against him.
The last few scenes were confusing. Either he died by a random stray bolt of lightening or something he got stabbed, but it was likely to be both.
Chibi Tudung is cute!
Jul 24th
Original image taken from Tiara’s blog
This got me thinking while I was talking to Jhameia about why people (read: Caucasian Christians) get so uptight around veiled women. The following proposal is not fully thought out and so may require some fine-tuning?
For me, I feel that part of the reason why the veil threatens such males (and to an extent, the females) so much is that they are confused about the sexuality and “availability” of veiled Muslim women.
For instance, the veiled Christian nun sends a strong message; I am a woman devoted completely to God, and thereby unavailable to you, ever, by virtue of my vows. This means that no one can ever own a nun, because they are owned by God.
A veiled Muslim woman, on the other hand, signifies that she is devoted to her God, but is still available for carnal relations because her veil merely signifies her commitment to God religiously but does not signal her inavailability to marriage. In other words, she confuses the white Male by being both available and unavailable at the same time.
Confused? Here’s another example to tell you to illustrate the point. It’s the same as a woman who goes to a bar, enjoys herself on the dance floor, lets herself be filmed by a camera crew while she’s dancing, and then protesting LOUDLY when her top’s pulled down to show her breasts.
Does that sound fucked up to you? GREAT, BECAUSE IT REALLY DID HAPPEN.
In essence, it is the simple idea that any woman who behaves in a manner that may be deemed “wild” or “disruptive” deserves not only to be oppressed, but also discriminated against. This discrimination need not be overt, but it can be subtle. As subtle as a woman who seems “surprised” that her daughter chose to wear the veil/tudung instead of a bikini.
Edit: With regards to the “oppressed” statement in the picture, and to explain the rest of my entry, when I say oppressed in this context, it is to say that a veiled Muslim woman is an oppressed woman. In other words, she cannot be seen to choose to wear the veil out of her own free will, because most Caucasians (in this context) believe that a Muslim woman dons the veil because she is FORCED/PRESSURED to do so, hence the oppression. The very idea that a woman may CHOOSE to wear the veil because she feels more comfortable in it flies in the face of a lot of people, especially who cannot understand a woman choosing to do something because it is her own choice.
[Song/Lyrics] Koi no Kajitsu
Jul 22nd
Kanji: 恋の果実
English: Love Fruit
Lyrics: TOMOMI
Music: MASTERWORKS
Performed by: SCANDAL
Source: Cherryblossom Garden
Translations: Translation.
I love the beats of this song. It reminds me of the Archies’ Sugar Sugar for some reason, but I like the drums and the general upbeatness of the tune. Romanji as usual, then Kanji and English under the cut!
Romanji:
Sekai wa konna ni mo hiroi no ni
Aru hi kimi to deaeta kiseki
Kagiri naku chiisa na unmei de
Kagiri naku ooki na kono kimochi
Kimi no kotoba no hitotsu hitotsu ni
Taishita imi nanka nai keredo
Sasayaku you na itsumono koe ni
Boku wa anshin shite irunda
Mawaru mawaru kisetsu no tokei no
SUPIIDO ga dandan hayaku naru
Ki ga tsukeba nandomo iro kawari
KARENDAA wa usuku natte yuku
Tada “koi” toiu hitomoji wa
AH boku wo komaraseru yo
Donna keshiki datte mannaka ni wa
Kimi no sugata dake ga atte hoshii
Aishiteru nante terete ie nai keredo
Kokoro saita hana ni warai kakete
Amazuppai kajitsu wo hoho tatte
Dokomademo tsuduku boku no egao
Kimi no koto dareka ni hanashite mo
Arifureta koi dato iu darou
Demo kitto sore de iin da yo ne
Tada kimi no koto ga suki nanda
Hora itsudatte ki ga tsukeba
AH mata omoidashiteru
Donna keshiki datte mannaka ni wa
Kimi no sugata dake ga atte hoshii
Furi dashita ame mo naze ka tanoshii kanji
Kokoro saita hana ni warai kakete
Amazuppai kajitsu wo hoho tatte
Itsumademo tsuduku boku no egao
Donna keshiki datte mannaka ni wa
Kimi no sugata dake ga atte hoshii
Aishiteru nante terete ie nai keredo
Kokoro saita hana ni warai kakete
Amazuppai kajitsu wo hoho tatte
Daisuki da nante
Terete ie nai keredo
Donna keshiki datte mannaka ni wa
Kimi no sugata dake ga atte hoshii
Furi dashita ame mo naze ka tanoshii kanji
Kokoro saita hana ni warai kakete
Amazuppai kajitsu wo hoho tatte
Dokomademo tsuduku boku no omoi More >
[Shorts] Unexpectations
Jul 21st
They were not what the elders wanted.
When Ariska was seven years old, her half-sister was born. She sat in a dark corner watching the festivities as everyone celebrated the child’s birth. Blond, blue-eyed, and perfect in every way, Rihona was the complete opposite of the tan-skinned, dark-haired and almond-eyed Ariska. At night, as everyone slept, Ariska crept into the nursery. Armed with a pillow she went to Rihona, her heart burning with anger and pain.
As she raised the pillow, Rihona woke up. She grinned a secret smile. Ariska smiled back; the babe too, was not what the elders sought.
Eumora Soap Testing~
Jul 21st
So, after selling it to darling Neko, passing some to Nera (ex-officemate) and countless nagging from my dad + bro (it’s very serious when THEY start making noise at me) I caved in and decided to start using the Eumora soap my brother swears by.
Eumora is this soap that claims to leave your skin feeling smoother, clears out your pimples (as you can see from Neko’s post), close your pores and do other miraculous things. Touted as an “all-in-one” skincare product, it boasts that after using it, you will not need any more toner, moisturiser etc. An ex-colleague who’s been using it for years swears by it; her skin is almost spotless and is always glowing.
It’s been three days since I started. Well, two, to be exact, cause I forgot to take a pic of my face on day two and I skipped the night washing. So far my first impressions is that it’s extremely drying on the skin. The feeling of your pores being tightened could be due to this. This is also the first soap I’ve used in an extremely long while that doesn’t kill my eyes when I open them after rubbing the soap all over my face, including my eyes. Rather, it makes me feel like I have a mask on.
Photo of Day One can be found here.
Photo of Day three is here.
Yes, I know about the colour contrasts. I’m going to be experimenting with a few settings later to see if I can get more uniform shots later. On another note, I am also selling this soap. If you want to buy/interested in selling it yourself, drop me a comment here and I’ll contact you. 
Things to do + 1 Meme
Jul 18th
Just a reminder to self:
- Write entry on Otome games
- Clean up study desk, put some books up for sale, mop floor
- Read up on Selangor’s Freedom of Information Bill – Write article on how to use that once it’s confirmed
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To be done when I wake up later: Replace current Seagate drive, install old harddisk, re-install Windows 7 and migrate things from Ele to Kuro, then put Kuro back on the floor after cleaning out the dust. Done!
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Also, meme, since Max asked nicely, and Fenix posted the link earlier:
[Politics] Awesome sauce!
Jul 15th
There were two reasons why I voted for the opposition in the last General Elections.
1. Pakatan Rakyat promised a FOI act.
They made a promise in 2008 that if they were elected, one of the first things they would seek to do is to create a Freedom of Information Act. This was one of the reasons why I voted them in; because they promised me that they would create such an act. Yesterday, they tabled the Freedom of Information Act. That’s one promise kept.
2. Local Elections
I am still waiting for this one to be resolved, but let’s just put it this way; apparently we are not allowed to have local elections because it is unconstitutional. Huh. But from what I know it’s still in progress.
Congrats, Pakatan. Now keep it up. I, for one, am interested to read what documents I can of the water concessionaire agreement.
Voice test!
Jul 15th
Someone said that I probably needed to get a proper job (aka one that occupies me for more than a few hours a day) to keep me off the negative and self-defeating thoughts I’ve been having recently. In response to that, I’ve decided to do something a bit extraordinary: Record for Librivox. I’ve recorded two snippets, both very short, but will upload only one cause I’m looking for a player that lets you play without needing to download.
Sonnet 17 is here. (Edited so it sounds louder)
And that old lit paper, Sonnet 18!
Primordial Sound Meditation
Jul 12th
This especially applies to my F-list who were interested in attending. Forgot to mention that this workshop is taken straight out of the Chopra Centre aka it’s by Deepak Chopra and David Simon. The trainer is Anthony Pinto, a Chopra-certified instructor.
Saturday, 24 July:
General Session – 9.30am to 12.30pm
Personal Instruction Session – 1.30pm to 6.30pm.
Sunday, 25 July:
General Session – 2.00pm to 6.00pm
You can get the full flyer here.
If you’ve got any questions, lemme know.
Things to do while waiting
Jul 12th
Stuff I need to write/edit:
1. Edit Nanonovels
Book 1: Key’s Twilight needs editing. It is also sitting on Zoho Writer because apparently GDocs can’t handle documents with more than 114,000 words. 
It’s over 512kb apparently. Basically it needs to be edited for flow, grammar check and spelling. Book 2: Key’s Kiss requires completion. At 53,000, it’s nowhere near done. I still need to actually get to the END of the books. And decide if I wanna make this year’s Nanonovel all about finishing the Key Trilogy.
2. Write Celefina
I have the ending, I have the opening. Now I need to actually write their stories. There’s five parts to this book and the setting is half inspired by Shadow of Colossus and Prince of Persia the movie (shows how bad the movie is that I want to rewrite the entire thing). I can get through the prologue, but the first arc is already making me go bwuH?
3. Begin Shieri
Interesting character that popped into the head one day. I may base her on a friend, because she seems to take quite a lot of personality traits from that friend. Including the sensitivity to spirits. 8D And the sex appeal. XD
Wordsmith with a penchant for writing wonderfully whimsical words.
