I have learnt:
- My own worst enemy is myself.
There is really nothing else to be said but that. All the mistakes that I’ve made over the past few days were my own, and I know I can do better. Giving up is not in my nature. It’s seeped in, yes, but I’ll be damned if I allow myself to give up. The whining stops now. It’s time to KATN!
- This is an opportunity I will NOT waste.
Seriously, a lot of people dream but very few actually take those steps to make those dreams a reality. I’ve been planning this for years, and if I give up now, when it’s so close what kind of a person am I? While I may lost faith in myself, others have not. I’d be a poor friend and giving those I care about a bad example if I give up so close to the finish line.
- I have a brain, I shall use it!
I know what I’ve done wrong, and how I’ve been taking everything for granted. Now I’ll translate that into my work. I used to be damned proud of what I did; it’s time to spark that piece of professionalism again. Money be damned, I’ve got my pride to keep me full.
- Body aches
Either my body’s getting a tonne of exercise from all that stairs, or I’ve been pushing too hard. Time to see a doc!
I. WILL. NOT. GIVE. UP.
Edit: I resigned anyway, since they had already put the resignation process into motion. I agree, that was the most stupid thing I’ve done, and it’s a mistake I do not intend to repeat again.