Gong Xi Fa Cai everyone! Baaaaaaaaa says hello too!
Image of storks from my own collection
The first thing she was aware of was the feel of the gentle breeze caressing her cheek.
It was a constant, gentle thing, a cooling wind to blow away the cares of the day. She found herself breathing easily, enjoying the breeze. Each breath she took brought new aromas, opened her senses to more information about this place.
The scent of wildflowers. Of freshly-cut grass. The cleanliness of a river.
A beautiful meadow, she thought to herself, her mind instantly casting back to when she was just five years old, and her parents had taken her and her brother on a family picnic. That one moment, when she was a child, walking in the tall grass.
“Open your eyes, Alice,” the brimstone voice of the demon broke her reverie.
Alice opened her eyes to find herself standing on a small hill, under the shade of a large yew tree. Around them, she could see people about them, frozen in a moment. Some were running after each other. A few were sitting on picnic blankets, sharing food. She even saw a couple kissing passionately, lovers entwined with each other, forgetting the world. Her cheeks turned red and she looked away.
“You may speak, child,” the demon’s voice seemed to unlock Alice’s lips, and she found the questions tumbling out.
“Where is this? What am I doing here? Why is everyone frozen?” Alice found herself hyperventilating, panic rising in her chest for no reason.
“Breathe, child. You are not in danger here. This…” he waited till Alice had taken two deep breaths and released them before he continued, “Is heaven. A place where those who are sinless and those who have done good, are taken to rest. Frozen, in a moment of time, at their happiest.”
“What… what is it that you wish me to do here then?”
“We want you to destroy Heaven,” she looked at him as though he had gone mad.
He grinned, and sat down. Alice could not help but think how absurd it was, that here, in the sunlight, in what was supposed to be one of the holiest places, a demon, complete with horns, cloven feet, and thin tail, was sitting happily on the ground. And looking up to HER as though she was going to do the impossible.
“What?” she blinked and stared at him.
“Corrupt Heaven, Alice. This is the price you will pay.”
“But how?” she took a few steps back from him and held her hands open wide, to emphasise her words.
“I leave that up to you. Let me know when it begins, hmm?” the demon leant against the Yew tree, closed his eyes, and soon began snoring.
Alice did not dare to even think of running away. She had made a bargain, and she would stick with it. The question that arose, of course, was how do you corrupt heaven?
Heaven, they say, is a place on earth.
Or that it’s something you work on. I don’t know. And to be honest, I stopped caring a long time ago.
Heaven, to me, is a state of mind. It’s a moment of bliss, a moment of happiness. A moment where everything clicks. When you feel right, and that everything around you is right. A moment that you would want to freeze. So as to remember it forever.
I don’t want to freeze time.
I know I don’t want to die. I have a lot of things to live for. I always had, I’ve just never had the courage to admit it to myself. But that’s beside the point.
I like the idea of Heaven, but I don’t like what you have to do to get there. That separation is painful. And if there is nothing in this life after death, it is also pointless.
Much better to love and appreciate the people around you instead while they are here. Heaven shouldn’t be a place you wait to meet those who’ve gone before. By the time you’ve found out, it’ll be too late.
Heaven should be a place on earth. Or rather, a person on earth.
Moments of happiness. Of life.
I don’t want to leave this plane. I don’t want to leave my friends, my family, my loves. I want to live here. To be here. Eternal happiness is nothing if the people I care about are not there.
Hell, they say, is other people. But I’m willing to be in Hell if my loved ones are in hell. Because my heaven are the people I care about.
And apparently I can care quite a bit.
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Full moon over Osaka, July 2013
Trigger warning for depressing content. You’ve been warned. Also a lot of self-indulgence, so um.. yeah. Continue reading “depressing words”
So am here on a Sunday morning to watch Dimmie fence. It’s her first tournament after taking up fencing this year, so decided to follow because I’m a busybody and because I’m curious.
What I’ve learnt so far is that fencing has 3 different kinds of competitions. Dimmie is taking part in the épée, which, in her own words, is “go in, stab, get point!” It’s the easiest of the three. The other two are the saber and the foil. For those two, there’s a rule called “right of way.” You basically need to get right of way to get a point.
Epée thus is like checkers. Some strategising but it’s fairly straightforward. Right now I’m waiting for her to take her turn. There’s only 8 fencers though, compared to I think 20 for the men earlier, so things should go faster? :P
So right now we are waiting for the women to get started. The women got started at about 11am and it’s almost 12. There’s been at least 5 bouts apiece for each. The points and rules are simple.
Land a hit, score a point. First person to 5 wins. You have a 3 minute time limit. Most matches take about 1.5 to 2 minutes. So it’s been fairly quick matches.
One of the interesting observations I’ve seen is that there are really competitive women here. One participant, in the middle of a match with DImmie, remarked to bystanders that she “didn’t want to do this (fencing) anymore.” Talk about frustration.
Now we see whether we continue through lunch or if something else comes up.